I feel alive when I travel. I love different landscapes, cultures, history, monuments and people. However, for the last twelve years, I have travelled less across the globe and spent more time crossing the terrains within. The energy and perspective have been ever changing, for every step forward, there have been several backwards. There have been light, sometimes bright, other times dimmer and then there have been moments when just a flicker; I have barely been able to breathe for fear of blowing it out. I have stood high on the mountain top of happiness and next, I have found myself sliding downhill to deep dark caverns of depression.
What kind of journey is this you may ask?
Who wants to vacate there?
If you had asked me this a while back, I would have replied not me ‘I AM A CELEBRITY, GET ME OUT OF HERE’ but now I am here at this point, if I were to write a postcard to you, it would read “Wish you were here”.
Why would I wish this on anyone, you may be thinking. Jo is one crazy lady. Thank you, but no thanks, tear up that ticket.
I say hold that thought; before you tear the ticket, ask yourself this.
Who am I? Why am I here? Why am I at this crossroads? And why have I been led to Jo’s Blog?
Do you every sit and wonder; what if, why, how, if only?
Or made the statement “I have a dream one day, when X, Y and Z are in place I am going to…”
Then stay with me. I had been doing everything ‘right’, at least I thought I was according to society. I had been a good girl, gone to school, achieved an education, went to work, worked hard and excelled up the career ladder. I learned to drive, bought a car, bought a house, made it a home, built a relationship, got married, become a mother, raised my children, had many friends, paid my dues, gave my respect and followed protocol – Phew, a lot of ticks on my ‘Be A Good Person in Today’s Society To Do List’. I was so proud of myself, I had accomplished them all and I was still in my prime. I was an achiever and it felt good.
To my family and friends I had it all and I did at that point but gradually this perfect scenario held little to no comfort, its lustre was fading and the cracks were beginning to show. My perfect dream was becoming my ultimate nightmare. My life was like one of those dreams where everything is falling away and no matter how many hands the dream-self manifested, there just was not enough and at one point I looked like a multi-dexterous octopus. Every tentacle was working to fill the cracks and the faster I worked the harder it became. The cracks turned to crevices and then rifts. I was so focused on filling the cracks that I stopped seeing everything that was causing my world earthquake.
It was while in these cracks, my vision narrowed, I could see less and less glory and more and more failings. And so my personal Innercising began. It has taken me a long time to understand what happened. One of the greatest gifts I discovered at this time was Numerology.
So what did Numerology show me? In brief; initially, I was in an 8 Cycle, living in a higher aspect, reward, recognition, respect, self-motivated, driven and organised, this was the number Cycle of personal power, career, finance and manifestation. The first Cycle is the Cycle of ‘Youth’; the period of self-discovery.
Then I found myself in a new zone with my second Cycle being a 5. These are two different vibrations and my transition was not smooth. I was now vibrating in a 5 energy and at a lower aspect. My world was constantly changing. I became a new mum, got offered my dream job as an interior designer, juggled both, felt pregnant again, moved, fell pregnant again, in hospital, out of hospital, moved again, divorced, started to work for myself, moved again, no rest bite, constant change when all I wanted to do was be free, travel the world, but no I was to move again. The 5 energy is all about adaptability, being multi-talented, resourceful and resilient and while there were much of these traits, there was also a lot of feeling scattered, I was inconsistent, found it difficult to commit and at times intolerant. This is the number of freedom and adventure and yet I had felt more trapped. The second Cycle is the Cycle of ‘Maturity’; the period of stability. So as you can see there is a conflict of energy here, the freedom 5 and the stable part of my life.
Where to next? My last Cycle will be a 9. The 9 is a number associated with forgiveness; to others and the self. Being about to forgive and let go opens the channels for a fruitful and rewarding time. It will be a time to take the wisdom from my experiences and pass this onto others in order to serve a greater cause within humanity. The third Cycle is the Cycle of ‘Wisdom’; the period of self-empowerment and specialisation.
Everything has been lining up and I am confident that the 9 Cycle will enable me to share my knowledge and specialisation with the world.
Life is not about the destination, it is about the journey.
Numerology leads us to our own guidebook.
And it all starts with our date of birth.